The last few months have been a blur for me. I have become so consumed with medications and diet and charting symptoms. I am wrapped up in worrying about preventing worst case scenarios, afraid to let myself be lulled into complacency by the relative normality of our daily life. And things are more or less normal. Except when they aren’t.
But meanwhile life moves on, and if I don’t remember to look up once in a while I could very well miss how wonderful things are, even in the midst of our current chaos. There has been music and art, sunshine, spring flowers and plenty of silliness. I have a hard time keeping things in perspective sometimes . . . but then that’s why I started this blog in the first place. When I’m in the thick of it, it is so easy to focus on the drudgery, the worry, the uncertainty. But when I look back at the reality of our daily lives, and I see those beautiful smiling faces . . . then I know that we are really doing ok.